who

Well i dont know really i just make this shit wiht a dumb tamplate i found online , i barely know how talk in enlgihs i will maake aloot fo mistakes lol.

i want a place where i cant just my tought alone for myself being in any type of social media is just turning in a horrible asshloe i already was lol. but whatever

i dont know shit about coding so it will be a lot noticble when the tamplate stop holgin me looool

12/05/2025

weell i just goint to use this as a type of journal i think yesterday was the las day at uni an it begin how is started complety alone bleeeeh i kind just leave crying becuse i the last project was supposed to be a musci video and this shittass was the only one who did it alone soo yeah was certanly an expiercen to se the other people having phot doing it while i just barely sleep myself

me btw :p

i learn how to block shit

yeaaaah i think i block most of the the social that i could i thikn i woul be a loooooooonng time whe i come back i hope its going to me more lonely that it is but whater is for the best , btw i thik the rule is a dont add a ner date is most like thi shit is for the msa day idk

i write like shit lol

or how the it coul be a typign kirk 0_0 naaah i just write like shit hahahah

i learn how to block shit

yeah the blocker works like wonder but it just feel lonely i guess like i know is just better this way i almor kill myself fot being there to much but idk i goint to mis "hering" the voices of thousthan people fighting for meaniles stuff like i just rember hoe quiet is really here.....i dont really like it

My writing is weird isnt it?

yeah before a really re read my stuff in other places but here idk who care how i wirte shit this is only for myself and no one else if i undertan what i wirte ists fine by me

why not used neocities or other alike?

i guess i dint want to post in places like that is just boilnd down tho the same sure they look pretty and inovathin but still a socila media and i really reallt trying to disntaind myself for anything like thart

13/05/2026

I SAW HER

i dont kwon what i was thinking triying to go back to a dating app the firt profile that i see its heer this fuckme up this complety fuck me up i try to send her a msj but a regret it idmidiatly i just wanna to said that IM SORRY but that dosent fix anything uhhh a thsis point that only hepls me than her uhhhh this succks , why did i did it

WEEELLLL I GUES TRYIGN TO NOT THIKN ABOUT IT DOSENT REALLY WORK i just want to know what im supposed i asked other people and they just said that i just take responsebility but what that means what i dont get it uhg

THE COWARD ONE

When i tell somenone that i wanted to do it becuse the thing i did i will just be a coward trying to evade resposibility for the thing i did and thats why sound so invitng is it? i feel theres no way i coul find closure for the thing i did and idk what to do if this will ever to find out , i dont want to do it but i feel like i deserved, OMG WHY IM A THINKIG JUST THINKIG ABOUT MYSELF INSTEAD OF THE PEOPLE I JUST UUHG I SUCK MAN

its official

yeeh i bouhg a domain just to force to keep me using this a dont wased in other social lol i hope it works

clueless

I dont thik that is really goint tho happend tho

yeeeah like for that i have to be somewat popular and dont think i will ever be, but yeah its quite an interesnting thought , but its this like happen likr rn hiiii noe existing youtuber how u doing.........but if you doing this just could mean do you know the horrible shit a did or some fucnking how i did something more horrible uuuhg fuck this suck

THE GIRL

she seemm happy i mean i know there are just photos but idk she seem that she is enjoying her life its bad that does make me feel i little better......idk i really hope she is doing alright

THIS NOT HELPING

IDK if making this was a good idea this only show me how lonley and brokes as aperson i am I want to be better i want to feel better but idk if im really allow to

WOULD YOU FORGIVE ME

I KNOW pretty lame right I dont going to tell anyone what i did and still want forgivness i just feel horrible an dont want to feel like this fuck i hate myself

OTHER LIKE

I some point it dosent matter when or where but i will be compared to other people that did similar shit to me or more horrble...I supposed its fair but idk i have some other people like me and the seem that they....dont car unless is found out HOW they dont care about the crushing guilt? about you could never honest wiht anyone unlees becuse they woul never see you the same? how you ruin some life? are they just that broken? am i that broken to far gone i lost cuse...i dont want that but it just feel like im going to be like them people have told me to just forgie myself WHY that dosent fucking fix anything I shouldt eve feel allow to think that...then what does hep being like this no one uuuuuuuhg idk im goig for a walk

SHADOW :P

I Feel a little better after a long walk bleh

what

i hope they are just bots if not hiiiii random peole that check this i dint expext to somenone findig this

14/05/2026

Wake up early today as always. Ugh, I hate doing this. At least before I could doomscroll until the evening, but now I have some shit to do if I don't want a constant silence. I mean, YouTube kinda helps, and yeah, I didn't block YouTube; I'm not that insane, lol. Anyway, YouTube helps but not really a lot. It's more of the social factor, I suppose. Idk, I could play some games, but it's been a while since I felt motivated to play anything. Bleeeeeeeeeh, this is stupid.

I WANT TO BE MISSED

first loose ? idk if doign this counts check the context before this I was in a somewat niche comunity I wasnt really popular there but I could say that atleat 5 people knew me I go tho check if somenone has say anything about me since I left.........noothing.... Its it bad that I wanted jus one persone just literaly one guy to just ask "hey what happen to that girl" but I guess but I guess im just that forgetable ..Im goiny to try not goint back atlea

faild agint but its alright

i know this is goig to be easy I enter in some socials again it was just a moment but uuuhg its really hard to leave out that shit

The others others like me

Yeah I suck at vague post so you should know what im talking about here lonl but idk it just feel i am supposed to be like them to feel the same things as them but im not I just simply feel so weirder out bleeeeeh another shit to add to the list of "stupid shit that only affect me"